im janey. And yeah, my life isn’t good as you’ve seen in the photos. It has some complicated and weird messy. I’ve born in this world, so i have to living on this. Actually i never asked my mom to bore me. But its already happened. I couldn’t refuse it. And you have to know it, it doesnt mean i wanna die. I just feel so...empty ._.
what does life mean? I never know. I’ve searched it in some books, novels, or even dictionary, but its not compatible to my opinion. Yes, everybody has their own mistakes and their own problems. And the only one we need is trying to face it. Face the problem isnt fuckin easy you know. Sometimes you just have an extrabravery in your self to do it. And honestly i never have it.
I hate to say it but whoever you, who says that, “be yourself” is the best quote ever, i tell you now, its kinda fuckin wrong. Who are you without following some things your friend have? Who are you without following some teenager news? Hello. You’re not living in the stone age. Be honest, you can’t live without following some things, right? You can’t be naturally in this century. Thinking it. If your friend have a newest phone, dont you want to have it too? Dont tell me your answer. Just keep it on your mind and thinking of it all day.
Yep. If you ever learned this one, eww i forget its Sociology lesson or something, they said that human is a social creature. They can’t live without someone else’s help. Damn its true. But if you always be a helper, its another story. You can’t be it ._. sometimes you need to be helped, huh? But when you need it. They suddenly lose like a ghost. Damn its funny ._.
Im a normal teenager. I do like boys. I prefer to listen the music than memorize my biology note. I prefer to chatting with my strangers than do my chemistry homework. Sometimes im lazy to go to school. I hate when i have so many homeworks and exams. I try to do it but when i get the hard question, i just refuse it from my face.
Predominate people is the wrong human. I really hate them. Nope, im not jealous or envy with their life. Goshhh ._. i have some business to do. They like an overconfidence wrong human. They never give another chance to somebody else. They always wanna be the number 1. Fuck them J
Now im trying to love my life. Im trying to face the problems better. Im trying to be the best people. Im trying to ignore some shit that they said.
Yeah sometimes im imagining that i have a free, i mean really free life. No prohibition order. No regulation. I can wanna be whoever i love to. I can around the world by myself. I can fly to the sky with my own way. I can do my homeworks with my working way.
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